My Opinion Counts. No, really.

My Opinion Counts. No, really.This past Friday my husband was having spinal surgery, so of course I tried to be the supportive wife and hang out in the surgical waiting room for the good news...

It never came.

Or, I should say it came to me about three hours later. You see, I had my fourth grand mal and second in the last six months while waiting in a surgical lounge. I guess it's pretty good that it happend in the hospital, huh? I went status epilepticus and had seized for almost seven minutes. All of this, after running out of a New York State sponsored health plan because I made the mistake of getting married - which caused me me lost me insurance and I can't afford Keppra with our five month old son needing much of our pocket money.

I want to know some things. Does anyone else have problems with memory after seizures? Muscle aches that make you feel like you've been hit by a truck? I've never lost my bladder or bowels so I guess I'm lucky...this sucks. I have an infant son at home that I can't visit anyone with because I can't drive. I can't stand the fact that this had to show up, now. I'm tired of spacing out, jerking...I've had these problems for years and to be honest I'm scared to death that I'm going to be holding my son and some TONIC will cause me to drop him. Then the CLONIC will cause me to not be able to pick him up again once I wake up again, however many hours later that is and of course if I remember who I am or what I'm doing here in the first place.

I feel great the rest of the time. Happy in life otherwise, good marriage and supportive family. But, how do you get rid of the fear? How do you talk to others about this without sounding like your bellyaching or being too paranoid? Does anyone else feel sick about these things?

And, I would like to hear first time stories - if your lucky like me you had the cops pulling you out of your drivers seat while the EMTs are trying to help you asking what drugs you took? Are you drunk? Distraught? No, officer. Don't arrest me, I'm not bad. Just sick.


LyraVega's Outworldly Delights

There's a breakdown on the runway
And the timeless flights are gone
I'm a year ahead of myself these days
And I'm locomotive strong
My city spread like cannon fire
In a yellow nervous state
I can't cut the ties that bind me
To horoscopes and fate

And I won't break and I won't bend
But someday soon we'll sail away
To innocence and the bitter end
And I won't break and I won't bend
And with the last breath we ever take
We're gonna get back to the simple life again

When we break out of this blindfold
I'm gonna take you from this place
Until we're free from this ball and chain
I'm still hard behind the eight
My city beats like hammered steel
On a shallow cruel rock
If we could walk proud after midnight
We'd never have to stop


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I dunnowanna hate people so i think it's shitty i'm out of the loop again and when someone does call it's always to ask for something man lyra is so lonley i don't know why got a second interview today and hi express a nice clean place for once but i don't want to go i fucked my back up because im tired of being out of shape no stamina where is my dark haired fred savage mike piazza prince and my fire crowned omyte angel and i also added the other tall as usaf tsgt to my other friend list and wanna go home to the wall is anyone out there listning to me?




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Ass-key is great


No work no money no friends no life I'm bored wanna sleep and that it can't stand to do nothing anymore bored with life in general again having some trouble with keeping myself interested with anything always alone he's never here always working on cars just have the cats not sure of what I want it's great to type and not use periods or any punctuation just have people figure out for themselves when the scentence ends and the new paragraph beings if you know what i mean man



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